14 September 2014

What the heck am I doing here???

I've survived the first week of classes - I just don't know if I am going to survive all of the reading I have to do before the second week of classes!

My weekly schedule is as follows:
Monday morning - Research Methods and Practices
Tuesday morning - Theological Foundations
Tuesday afternoon - United Church Worship
Wednesday afternoon - United Church Formation
Thursday morning - Biblical Foundation:  Hebrew Bible
Thursday afternoon - Pastoral Foundations:  The Search for Meaning and Connection

I think that it was some time around Tuesday afternoon that I had a sensation of being completely overwhelmed.  What the heck am I doing here?  Why did I give up a perfectly good career and home to do this?  Short term goal:  to make it to the end of the week.  Longer term goal:  to make it until the end of term.  Breathe.

That feeling has settled down a bit.  I'm getting in to the assigned readings (and getting through them, mostly on schedule).  And I'm enjoying the readings!  Maybe this isn't going to be as impossible as I thought?  But then there are the assignments - first one due on Tuesday afternoon.  What the heck am I doing here?!

I can do this.
One day at a time.
One chapter at a time.
One assignment at a time.

On another note, I finally have internet at home!  3 weeks after making contact with them, someone finally came by yesterday morning, plugged in a modem for me, and 5 minutes later I had working internet.  Yay!

I'm almost unpacked here in my apartment - just in time for my first visitors from "home" are expected this week.

(this term's texts)


  1. If anyone can do this......YOU CAN!!!! Remember what you've told yourself.....breathe.
    I have faith in you :)

  2. Amen to my wise mum's musings.
    Let me also add that you are not alone. God is guiding your steps, even if you're not exactly sure where they are taking you, and those of us who love you are behind you every step of the way.
    Plus, your new place is lovely and you have access to Pete's Frootique. So that's something. Right? Right!
    Keep putting each foot in front of the other and you can't go wrong.

  3. Kate- I just found your little corner of the world. Love it! Welcome to AST. Its been absolutely amazing getting to know you and I look forward to the next 2 years we will share together. Just remember to breathe and trust God. Not all the readings will get done and that is okay. Not all the assignments will be handed in on time...and that is okay. Just remember to try and put 1 foot in front of the other. If you ever need to borrow text books rather than buy just let me know. I am sure I have some.
    Blessings on this journey.

  4. Thanks Hillary! I'm feeling a whole lot less stressed now than I did when I wrote this (after the first week of classes - my first week of classes in 15 years). I love AST, it has just been a real adjustment to go from working full-time to being a student full-time! Thanks for the offer of books - I may take you up on it at some point!